Bonjour to all. Have you had a great time travelling with friends or family? It's time for me to journey somewhere for peace of mind. If not, you are supposed to embark on a trip somewhere you've never been before in poverty or prosperity. New encounters can always enlighten or enrich your life to certain extent.
Dear all, can you all believe that? My trip to France is just two months to go. I am terribly panicked now. Why? Most of my friends or students kept discouraging me from visiting there, for there're great numbers of murder cases on the increase and that gang of pickpockets, Gypsies, some desperados will mainly target at tourists, especially visitors whose presentations tend be to Asian or Chinese. Yes, That's so me here. And aside from regular steps of scheming my trip itineraries, I was totally absorbed (or nearly way too paranoid about the details regarding the promenaded stroll along the streets of Paris as well as some biking trailers to some quaint shops where locals can greet your with warm smiles holding their paper bags loaded with fresh dairy products, baguettes in an elegant black dress. Couples of days ago, there're news released via some mainstream media that some Chinese tourists were confronted by some passengers from Czech starting the fight, seemingly provoking them off the train. Those European passengers shoved them on the platform. This deliberate attempt triggered the physical confrontations and unavoidable verbal arguments. They are way too aggressive and hostile anyone could sense it en route to or back from work that day. What's worse, those victims were dragged by the collars while the train was slowly moving away from the train station. That's totally appalling when I learned of the news in Taiwan when it was aired on TV. I could feel the acid liquid surge from my stomach and burn my throat out of great panic. That's really insane when it happened no matter which country this incident might have arisen. I am the person who holds zero tolerance of violence or any irrational behaviors in public.(Sometimes it's alright to scream or sing at the top of you lung when taking a nice shower in your bathroom. And it's another story when you are in possession of arms used to hurt people or cause the great panic when crowds are converged.)
Monthly Anecdotes: Find It Hard to Keep Your Composure with Friends
(The routine gathering turned out to be an upset experience.)It's the day right after my Sunday class when the night was still young. Some of my students were supposed to go for a spin in the suburbs and dig in those local delicacies in the nearby night market as one of them proposed one day before. Unexpectedly, they bailed on me by saying that some might feel like staying home rather than hanging out in crowds. And there came an inexcusable excuse that it could have rained that night. Initially, I was trying to shrug off the spoiled plan that truly upset me for ruining the beautiful evening with my students like friends to me. But it's hard to disguise my sorrow and pretend there's nothing going on there. But it really earned my moment of eye rolling over such lame excuse so as to cancel the date and put their businesses over us, or before me taking them way too seriously. That didn't change much between our friendship but I couldn't help it to whine about all I have done to them, asking some favors back this time to make me less miserable.
(Shift Your perspectives when things didn't go as planned)When informed of the last-minute schedule change, I decided to hop on my shuttle bus back to H.S.R. near my place and part of me thought about watching a film in the downtown alone as one of my favorite entertainments as well as a nice choice of killing time and having fun. While picturing everything I was about to do on my way to the bus station, I was planning to march around the bookstore to see if there's some nice inviting reading I could have caught up with or simply to grab a book on the shelf helping myself feel better for absorbing great knowledge, taking pleasure in some classic quotes for some successful entrepreneurs, life survivor, or inspirational stories striking a chord in you from deep within. Those encounters should have been intriguing and urging you to think about the life further in a profound way. Perhaps bearing in mind all the details written on the books seemed unlikely in most cases, I still held firm belief we would learn something extraordinary lighting up your way in darkness when you felt so vulnerable to reality. I am not here to promote or endorse any books ever in my reading lists but appreciate some thoughts, words from the writers reminding me that I am not alone in such despair.
(The sense of loneliness tend to catch you off guard, especially in the late evening alone in the bed)Many of my friends are really capable of dealing with difficult customers and the lucrative investments full of variables and uncertainty; however, they have had a hard time addressing the sense of loneliness like the blaze engulfing the establishment at. the snap of the fingers. If you don't feel supported or loved, you are never alone. "MY friends ignored my expressed need for affection and walked away from me with others, the total strangers to me. It's just so terribly pathetic if I go groceries shopping at the mall with the shopping cart tilted on the squeaky worn-out wheels, aimlessly pushing it to every aisle alone exactly like an elder man desperately seeking assistance for only getting a bar of soap from the shelf; nightmare has shared something with it in terms of literal definition in the paper dictionary. Dear, you are still loved by many around you have always cherished and recognized by those good work. But somehow your sense of achievement hasn't been validated , tears rolling down your cheeks not having been understood , and those indifferent looks you showed people in the office today not fully well-interpreted to the extent people came to your desk with warm smiles and a pat on the shoulder. But remember we all have our rough days and we are so inclined to put our needy feelings before what others need as well(most of the time), hope the idea ever came across your mind :No one owes you anything , and you should be nicer to other because that's who you are. Treat all living creatures with kindness and forgiveness.
(The Strong feelings of being cast away from the crowds even in the hustle of people steps around)Tonight, a couple of sentences suddenly surfaced in my mind: The loneliest moment is whenever there's no one on your phone contact you feel the urge to say Hello to; the greatest joy is to spot a person expecting and instantly hugging you right after you pass the gate of the train station to the concourse. That's the very moment you feel valued and needed. That's one of the ways of validating your relationships with others. Physical intimacy should be meticulously maintained from time to time. Turn the negative voice into the affirmative commitment to the future, and we should be respectful and responsible for our conducts in order to eliminate unnecessary misunderstandings and avoid stereotypes getting in the way of getting to know a new friend better.
Yes, I am so aware that I should count my own blessing and stop whining about those low tides most people might have encountered but sometimes you just cannot compare yourself with those refugees fleeing their hometowns or those dying people in African or impoverished countries awaiting some charitable provisions and resource supply. We'll have to deal with some individual issues at hand. Why did loneliness come to me and always appear out of nowhere, especially midnight before bedtime
(What? Hold Your Horse and please save all the dramas to yourself, please!)
People get really cynical about things if their lives get tougher. To me, it's not commonplace to see a person keep his composure all the time even though it's a sweet life for him. Recently, I did perceive some unusual ambiance simmering in my life. It's not exactly about what really defeated me regarding some unfair demands from my parents, like returning home as early as possible for some horrible leftovers cooked by my sister-in-law (believe it or not, it's a total disaster when it comes to her culinary arts. Sorry, I shouldn't have insulted the term" Culinary Arts" or associate it with her cooking skills more like a child playing in the sandpits getting herself some muddy faces), or negative responses from my rebellious students threatening to ask a refund from my teaching programs if I didn't save them the seats at the front row of the classroom. Doesn't it sound insane to you? Alright, it's the student affairs going on outside my classroom. Why should I bother talking about it. It's because I often get invited to their parties or attempt to initiate some for us on weekday evenings for pleasant talks or blabbering about every single thing in life based on our observations. One guy, named Vic, has been the designated driver whenever and wherever we go, for which he has my heartfelt gratitude. He never tried to complain or ask for some charge for riding his car, or suggesting that we take cabs for the venue where we would dine out often together. He's a hilarious person and always glues his eyes on the variety shows after school. That could be a double-edged sword. Yes, the only thing he can mention repeatedly is all about the contents from the shows he's learned and somewhat the point his confidence has built up when the rest of us laughed over his brain-dead jokes. There's a girl, Dorisa, who aimed at being a flight attendant; however, after several times of failures, she decided to face the music and get down-to-earth for making real money in the first place before pursuing her dream in the sky.
(Th Tuning Points in her life: Persistence is the only quality leading one to success. The pursuit of your dream requires persistence and temedous passion before you achieve something in the long run.)Surprisingly, she got the offer in some chain store restaurant which paid her quite well. Yes, given that her gorgeous presentations, many male students felt intrigued by her and felt like getting to know her, including Vic. He ever invited her to watch the night scenery near his place on the top of the hill without even sharing what's going on with us. Hey, we are more than teacher-student relationship but friends, okay? And we can bless them for some nice future and even attend their wedding ceremony. The truth that hurts most of us as his friends(or at least we consider ourselves really genuine to him) detached him from us and he is no longer welcome to our gatherings and what upset me was he's been dating all the female students in my classroom. I confronted him with these unnerving issues. What I've got from him was " It doesn't harm anyone's feelings and I do enjoy and feel entitled to all forms of friendships" Ouch, was he insinuating that we could possibly manipulate or intervene any dates he's looking forward to in private? Right, perhaps the gene of paparazzi is always in our blood but in this case, we sense that he has been simply hanging out with us and has never taken us seriously in the past months. Hello? It's not a shame or some criminal acts that you expect the whole world to stay away from but something sweet going on there. So back to where I just started, that bizarre atmosphere began going on among students. I would never feel comfortable learning of any news regarding some love affairs from students or I might be in some unsolicited hot water which I have a handful of thorny issues caught in my own drama.

After weeks of drifting apart with some people, I did realize that it could be the condescending sense to drive me to do all these unnecessary isolation from them. Do they really take our friendship seriously enough that I could be more committed to maintaining it. Okay, I am not talking about running a business with some partners or cherishing my romance with someone in a grinding period. It's more about " I VALUE ALL RELATIONSHIPS IN LIFE" I don't really thing I've gone overboard in those abovementioned cases. Perhaps people tend to get hurt when they take things too seriously. Let bygones be bygones, you can just walk away from people you might treat with great affection and time investment. That's too juvenile and cool. Take a look at horoscope forecast, you can totally grasp a clear picture how people process those trifles in life. And it's better to adopt moderate measures to handle all people issues. They are pretzel-rooted issues from the cradle to the grave. You cannot just run away from them. You have to pretend holding a sword slaying the problems like the fire-breathing dragon marching toward you. The problem will get smaller when you face it. That sounds really constructive and reasonable but very few people could put it into practice. Here comes my personal advice for you all as references.